Sunday, 26 September 2010

Abang...

knape ni?dulu kte x cmni pn?byk mslh kte hadapi same2...
tp skrg,em skrg pn msih hadapi same2,cume...
penyelesaian tu mcm kte x jumpe..
yg kte jumpe,cume kata2 utk keruhkan lg keadaan.


aku xnak mcm 2,bukan aku yg nak...
tp bile semua jd serabut,apa yg kite pk n ckp pn dah jd tunggang langgang.
x patut la hubungan yg kte jage slame 3 tahun ni hancur sebab diri kte sendiri..taknaklah.


x pernah pun aku jage hubungan aku ngan org selama ni.
sbb biasenye,aku senang je break up dgn sape2 pun.
biasalah,senang nk cari yg laen.
tp aku tau,usia makin lanjut,smpai ble perangai nk tros mcm tu??
klau aku x cari yg sempurna di mata aku skrg,
aku xkan jumpe sampai ble2 pn nanti.


Bile dah namanye lelaki,mmg susah nak cari yg perfect tu.
lg2 zaman skrg ni.semua pn nak cari girl separuh masa je.
n excuse me,aku xkan jd girl mcm tu.
aku nak cari boy utk aku jdkn teman hidup sampai ble2.
bkn part time ok...


so skrg aku dah jumpe,xkn aku nk lepaskan..
kecualilah,kalau dlm hati die mg dah x punya aku..
terpaksa aku terima hakikat.
xkan punya aku paksa org utk suka n sayang akulah.
x syok dpt kasih syg g2.
lg an,klau x dpt kasih syg dr seorang suami nanti,
aku masih ade family yg syg aku.
klau xde,rasenye xde makne aku hidup pulak kot..


the thing is,i love him.
n i hope,he loves me t0o.
so then we can live happily ever after.
if not,i can't do anything lorh..

Thursday, 2 September 2010

Ha cumey x my new phone..sony ericsson spiro..i love it!!handphone utk aku wt basahan..hehe senang cket..cumey tecik je..

Ade ke patut??mmg x patut bt0l.

Aduh.knp la mcm ni skali jd kt aku...
aku dah do the best da..cube aturkan segalanye awal2 lg so that nothing can mess it up...till that damn!
urrgghh sentiasa mengubah my plan even saat2 akhir..
x patut btol laa.habis plan aku nk dinner dgn dak kls.
aduh ase pedih sgt r hati ni.rase sakit sgt r pale ni..
cm nk cabut,n baling je..huh mmg x patut btol..
mmg sengaja cari psl dgn aku an.mmg sengaje..
aku ase cm,eeiii knp la msti nk buat aku marah an..
wt aku hepi je xley ea..aku ni baru la nk baek2 n b'ckp semula dgn die..then,this happen n i can't help it anymore..
mmg nk suruh aku mencetuskan perang dunia ke-4..

Aku mmg btol2 x fhm walaupun aku cuba sdaye upaya aku utk cuba fhm sgalenye..
aku dah plan awal2,aku dah ckp dah awal2..tp,still..
hmm seems like after this,no more planning,just burst out..
Agak aku ni patung ke,ke die yg pekak??
x dengar ea plan aku?laen kali aku kne gune cara lain..
maybe gune sound system yg lengkap bile ckp ngan die..
maybe...klau x berkesan jugak..mmg aku x tahu nak ckp ape dah..

Sebenarnya, mmg btol ke kate ibu,dah nasib kami kne duk rumah je??kne tinggal je??maybe bkn nasib ibu sorg kot..
sbb aku xkan pernah tinggalkan ibu..
Sebab aku xkan pernah nak kecewakan ibu..
Kalau pun ada org dlm family ni nak kecewakan ibu,itu bukan aku..
Ibu ada bila aku perlukan dia,n aku juga akan wt mcm tu.
ada d sisi dia bila dia perlukan aku...
nampaknya aku mmg kne blaja cara utk kawal emosi dlm diri aku ni..bila dah nama tu perempuan,emosi mmg byk,n aku kne stabilkan emosi aku agar x membuak2 keluar n mkn diri aku sendiri..
lgpun byk lg perasaan org lain yg aku kne jage..
bukan family aku je,tp juga org2 lain samada aku knl,ataupun x..
the truth,aku mls nak pk semua ni,tp,i had to...
ni kan...my life...",)

Monday, 30 August 2010

I hate it!!

This cant b happening to me..
my novel was gone..my breaking dawn!!
damn that thief..i'll find u..
and also,at the same time..i lose my temper.
thats terrible..its horrible!
obviously, i should not do that..
isy,patut bulan2 puase ni istighfar bebyk..
jgn marah2..tp klau dah behave mcm 2,mcm 2 jgk la..
hamun laa sespe yg mencari maut 2..
mmg tepat sasaran aku bg..
isy ilang mood btol laa.apehal laa sume pn mencari masalah yg x patut dowg cari..
gler aku mcm ni tw..
gler mncari keamanan..boley ak..
aduh!!sudah jatuh..d'timpa buku lak btimbun2..nasib2..

My bad day..

Its really been a bad day since they came here...
urrrgghh..feels like want to kill somebody..
all happens so fast and me,doing nothing.
so damn that day..i feel like me hurting my bear.
my POOH bear...aaaaarrrhh,how dare them!
Since that day,i had a really bad day..
going out for shopping,but i did not buy anything for myself..
wth is happening??i don't even know..
everyone just talking bullshit.
Till today,i had a bad dreams when i got a fight with my boy.
urgh,how could this happening to me??
i wonder if ever make any mistake to my life before..
huh...wondering n keep wondering..
till there's nothing left to wonder more..

Where is the moment we needed the most


You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

They tell me your blue skies fade to gray

They tell me your passion's gone away

And I don't need no carryin' on



You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee you go

You tell me your life's been way off line

You're falling to pieces every time

And I don't need no carryin' on



Because you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

You had a bad day



Will you need a blue sky holiday?

The point is they laugh at what you say

And I don't need no carryin' on



You had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day



(Oooh.. a holiday..)



Sometimes the system goes on the blink

And the whole thing turns out wrong

You might not make it back and you know

That you could be well oh that strong

And I'm not wrong



(yeah...)



So where is the passion when you need it the most

Oh you and I

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost



Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

You've seen what you like

And how does it feel for one more time

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

Sunday, 29 August 2010

aku dan sesuatue..

this is real
this is me
i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be now
gonna let the light
shine on me
now i've found
who i am
there's no way to hold it in
no more hiding who i wanna be
THIS IS ME...

Saturday, 14 August 2010

OLD one..

this is my old story..
its about my old life in mersing..
sometimes,this thing juz keep calling me to be like i was before..
be free..be wild..wild enough till all of my family worried bout me.
its the only way i can get their attention..hehe
and of coz..i miss it a lot..
even i shudnt remember this..
but i juz cant let it go..huh
really complicated hah..
i left it behind,and i shud always remember that.
thats my promise,i'll keep it..
forever after..

My love..i'll be missin u..

Every day I wake up

I hope I'm dreaming

I can't believe this shit

Cant believe you ain't here

Sometimes it's just hard for a nigga to wake up

Its hard to just keep going

Its like I feel empty inside without you being here

I would do anything man, to bring you back

Id give all this shit, shit the whole knot

I saw your son today

He look just like you

You was the greatest

You'll always be the greatest

I miss you big

Cant wait till that day, when I see your face again

I can't wait till that day, when I see your face again...



Yeah... this right here (tell me why)

Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone

That they truly loved (cmon, check it out)





Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show

I laced the track, you locked the flow

So far from hanging on the block for dough

Notorious, they got to know that

Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)

Words can't express what you mean to me

Even though you're gone, we still a team

Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)

In the future, can't wait to see

If you open up the gates for me

Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)

Try to black it out, but it plays again

When it's real, feelings hard to conceal

Cant imagine all the pain I feel

Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)

I know you still living your life, after death





Every step I take, every move I make

Every single day, every time I pray

Ill be missing you

Thinking of the day, when you went away

What a life to take, what a bond to break

Ill be missing you



I miss you big



Its kinda hard with you not around (yeah)

Know you in heaven smiling down (eheh)

Watching us while we pray for you

Every day we pray for you

Till the day we meet again

In my heart is where I'll keep you friend

Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed

Strength I need to believe

My thoughts big I just can't define (cant define)

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks

You and me taking flicks

Making hits, stages they receive you on

I still can't believe you're gone (cant believe you're gone)

Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)

I know you still living you're life, after death



somebody tell me why



On that morning

When this life is over

I know

Ill see your face





Every night I pray, every step I take

Every move I make, every single day

Every night I pray, every step I take

 every day that passes

Every move I make, every single day

 is a day that I get closer

to seeing you again

Every night I pray, every step I take

we miss you big... and we wont stop

Every move I make, every single day

cause we can't stop... that's right

Every night I pray, every step I take

Every move I make, every single day

we miss you big

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